I know I’m probably not alone in this phase. Many of us are probably feeling the yin sensation right about now. The end of the holidays, a new year, stricter restrictions and guidelines related to the covid pandemic.
As part of my rituals in welcoming a new year, I love to reflect on the last year and observe some challenges I’ve overcome and name the blessings that I witnessed. I also like to select a feeling or a motto that I want to live by for the new year.
This year, my December all-inclusive trip was at the psych ward. I was wishing and hoping for a trip to disconnect and recharge my battery. I didn’t think it was going to take me to the mental health section of the hospital.
Covid definitely changed all my traditions. What about you? This year, I prioritize my work so didn’t see the holidays arrive. How are you going to celebrate and cope with the strange times we are living in?!
Did that ever happened to you? Sensations so strange, numbness to your body, but just on the left side, heat in your left side of the face, nausea, tension all over my body and heart palpitations. To me, that sounds like signs of a stroke.
Do you sometime pause and consider what if scenarios? What if I had not gotten pregnant? What if I had given birth to healthy babies? What if my triplets were alive today? How different would my life be?
Why do we think that in order to survive, to live, we need to do. We need to race here, race there. We can’t relax until we have finish all our errands or all our items on the todo list. Why do we do that to ourselves?
This year, I’ve decided that I will speak up about my struggles, educate, shed light on my life and possibly give hope to others that are traveling through difficult times.
