What des a burnout look like?! For me, I can’t work, I can’t concentrate, I’ve lost my short term memory. I have no energy. I don’t have the desire or energy to clean or cook my meals. I’m having a hard time functioning even after sleeping more than 10 hours. I’m just fatigue, boned tired... exhausted.

today of all days, I don’t feel any strength or bravery. I actually feel pretty weak and numb. I don’t feel brave at all. Today, I fell small and vulnerable

Today I came up with a few concrete actions I could’ve done to help avoid an hospitalization and this current medical leave. I’d like to share with you my list.

What does it mean being open and transparent with yourself? What about when you say you are vulnerable?

I know I’m probably not alone in this phase. Many of us are probably feeling the yin sensation right about now. The end of the holidays, a new year, stricter restrictions and guidelines related to the covid pandemic.

As part of my rituals in welcoming a new year, I love to reflect on the last year and observe some challenges I’ve overcome and name the blessings that I witnessed. I also like to select a feeling or a motto that I want to live by for the new year.

On this 2020 covid edition of Christmas’ eve, I’m allowing a moment to pause and reflect on the word Christmas and its meaning in my life.

This year, my December all-inclusive trip was at the psych ward. I was wishing and hoping for a trip to disconnect and recharge my battery. I didn’t think it was going to take me to the mental health section of the hospital.

Covid definitely changed all my traditions. What about you? This year, I prioritize my work so didn’t see the holidays arrive. How are you going to celebrate and cope with the strange times we are living in?!